My wife stopped being sexual or showing any physical validation towards me years ago. The rest of the marriage is great and over the years I’ve learned to just do what I had to in order to find release. However, over the last year the need to be physically appreciated kept growing. Some ladies would give me a second glance or make a flirty comment and that would power me for days. As with all growing addictions I needed more to get the same joy.

Eventually I found r/phonesex and would make posts looking to get some fun woman off. I was told I had a good voice so I wanted to use it to make another cum. The ones that took a chance on my posts would become repeat customers and we would have our dirty voice dates grow bolder and bolder. They would open up and share dark or kinky fantasies they were nervous to tell their partners in real life. I in turn would fulfill their fantasy needs powered by hearing their moans and vibrators working. There was something so fulfilling about meeting a woman and hearing her be dirty, saying “oh fuck” as she touched herself, and then being a laughing exhausted minx during our aftercare chats. Is it cheating? Probably but I just kept thinking of it as the same as VR porn rather than any affair.

And then the need grew and one day I asked a partner on the call if she wanted to see my cock. She exclaimed gladly and I still remember the anticipation I had as I turned in the video and stroked for her. She was quiet for a bit and then told me how delicious and handsome my cock looked. I learned of something new inside me, I loved being praised for something I only show to one person. Then on I would ask all. Some were not interested and just wanted the call and that made me hard. The ones that said yes made my months better. I never felt more empowered than when a stranger would compliment my cock and the few that would also go on video and mutually masturbate as we had filthy conversations made me jones for more.

I became addicted to the wonderful women of Reddit that would share an ear and sometimes their private fulfillment with me. I never thought of physically getting involved behind my wife’s back because it’s not the physical I seek. It’s being a nasty slut and slut enabler to strangers that makes my cock throb and my needs met.

And even when I try to be better, every so I make a post and wonder what dirty vixen will take a chance on me.