My wife(40). Myself (41m). Married 12 years. She is extremely cautious and an amazing human being I on the other hand a complete wreck. I put on a great facade. Great dad. Pretty decent husband. My past is speckled to say the least. Sex drugs and drugs and more sex/masturbation. Im basically a closet cocaine/meth sex addicted perv. I’m high a lot. She doesn’t know. I’m surprised. But again she’s naive to a lot. Extremely attractive to each other when we do have sex. Which isn’t often. I’ve never cheated (while we are married). I watch way too much porn. Get caught up in chat rooms. Sexting more men than women. (I don’t have any answers for that). I fantasize that she might get kinky or ask to try drugs…. I know it’s not realistic. It makes me sound like I’m a bad husband. I treat her well. And my kids. They want for nothing. Do I stay in this real world great relationship or run away and live the fantasy I think about a lot on the daily.