I’m (m42) happily married with two awesome kids and a great job. My wife and I still have great sex on a mostly regular basis. I’ve got great friends and even do some passion projects on the side.

But I always have to have a girl on the side. Ever since Covid I started sexting with younger (legally aged) women, usually having 1-3 that id sext with once every couple of weeks. A few times it even progresses to phone sex.

Last year, I had a consistent sext/phone partner for almost 6 straight months and for the first time it began to feel like infidelity, so I cut it off and haven’t had any other flings since.

But it’s been so hard. I am fucking my wife more than ever but during the day I’m still wishing I had a side chick. I’m constantly thinking about it and imagining any moderately attractive woman as my next girlfriend.

Sometimes I’ll jerk myself off so many times to porn to distract myself that it hurts!