First off i feel disgusted by what i did. I feel like i betrayed her trust and friendship. We have been friends for 7yrs . About a month prior to me taking her used panties i was in a position where mutual prolonged eye contact was established during that time. I subtly studied her face and fell in love with her bad like i dream about her often kind of bad. Which why now? I have known her all these years an in that moment i experienced is when it struck me that i love her on another level!

The most intimate thing i experienced with her is expressing my vulnerabilities with her because i feel i could rest my life in her hands no matter the outcome. She has always made me laugh and i feel very at peace in her presence. She is very intelligent we hold great brain stimulating conversations an she just has that Caring nature about her that i adore. This is just a quick summary of how i feel about her to reduce reading time.

Last week she was not feeling her best and asked if could stop in to help her with laundry and some other things and she would make food for us both. So, i agreed and stopped in to help. I was loading dirty laundry in the washer when a pair of her panties fell out and landed on the floor. I picked them up thinking nothing of it and was about to place them in the washer. Then i compulsively put them to my face and smelled them. A wave of pure bliss took over me because i just introduced her pheromones to my senses. I then proceeded to put them in a pocket. Out of fear of reducing her scent i requested a ziploc waited about 20 mins or so then went into the bathroom and put them in the ziploc. I carry them with me everywhere so when i need to i can get a smell of her scent. Its like a Fkn drug!

I want to open up to her and explain what i did and why it did it and that i feel horrible but i do not want to ruin our friendship. She is one of the small amounts of people i can be tolerate being (In fact i cherish time with her) around for longs periods of time. An it would destroy me to lose her as a Friend.