Soo… just for starters, I’m pansexual. A few years ago I decided I’d give anal masturbation the good old college try, mainly because I was trying to get over trauma that happened to me 4 years before then by exploring myself on my terms I guess.. idk if that sounds stupid but any ways I was always kinda turned off by the gross factor so I looked into trying to eliminate that unpleasant factor (mind you I have IBS so it can be fucking hard to do stuff without making a disgusting mess🤦‍♂️🤢) and after the first couple times of making a mess in the shower I discovered anal douching or whatever the correct term is… so I went to the sex store and bought me a cheapo and started using it. It was significantly better after doing this and that was nice, but the nozzle end was this hard plastic that wasn’t like smoothed out and even with a lot of lube that fucker felt horrible going in. So eventually I upgraded to a more expensive one that had what felt like a softer and easier rubber nozzle. This was better but even it was slightly painful. Like it felt like I assume the holes were scraping me. And having to insert and remove multiple times to get “clean” was super fucking unpleasant. Well, last year we got a new shower head, one of those ones with the hose and multiple stream settings… you might already know where I’m going with this already…. So I found that the single stream setting one day while just messing around (nothing sexual at the time) I accidentally discovered it could shoot water inside of me. Lightbulb went off and I experimented with it and thought “ omg, I’ve solved all my problems! “ …. And not only that but it felt fucking good as fuck 😅 like if it went in just right it would hammer my prostate and make me drip cum. I was stoked. Not only could I clean my self out more efficiently and without painful scraping, I could get my self warmed up and horny lmao. Well, I’ve done this multiple times and nothing has ever happened. It really felt like I cracked the code or something idfk. Well…… tonight, I was in the shower doing the same thing, nothing different… but when I got out and realeased the water from my ass in the toilet, I got up and noticed there was some blood 😳😳😳. Not a scary amount but enough to make me kinda concerned… idk if this was the best place to ask this, but is this something I should totally be rushing to a hospital about?! Has anyone else experienced this.?! Or am I just worried about something that’s really not a big deal… sorry if this was too much. I just didn’t wanna start googling “anal bleeding “ cause without a doubt all links lead to “ you have cancer you gonna die”

TL;DR used shower head to douche my ass, found blood in toilet after doing so and kinda freaked out.