All of my suicidal thoughts and slowly turning into homicidal thoughts, I'm fed up with dealing with stupid people, after dealing with everything I have. I just want it to be my daughter and I, no ex-wife, no old friends, no girlfriends, but i don't everything I do for my daughter, I care for my girlfriend, but not as much as I claim I do and I don't know how to tell her that, my ex-wife and her new man's I would gladly throw them out of our lives but growing up without a father I can't let my daughter not have a mom, I feel empty and cold, I truly don't think I have feelings anymore, I Blame a lot of this on my autism and childhood traumas but I don't know how to get what I want/need