Heads Up: Long Post

A little background: I (m20) went to a middle and high school that were 5 min apart from each other. Everyone of my friends came from those 2 schools.

So during my middle school years, I met a girl and we kicked it off pretty well. We matched each other’s energy and we can tell we both enjoyed each other’s company. She was a year ahead of me so when she went to high school, I was in my last year of middle school. That didn’t stop us from talking though. She was my ride or die to be honest. We did everything together.

When I started my transition to high school she was there and helped me get the ropes of the campus and classes. In the morning and at lunch we’d sit together with her friends. It was a great first 2 years of my high school years.

Toward the end of my second year, my parents decided that I would transfer to another school. I was very surprised and their reasoning was for a better education even though I had straight As. As for the girl, we continued to talk and I took her to her prom. We literally still couldn’t be separated.

The summer before she went to college, she decided that we shouldn’t see each other anymore. Even with it being 3 years since we last spoke, I still miss her. I’ve tried to see if she would wanna meet up to catch up, but every time she responds with “I’m busy” or “next time.”

If I could go back in time, the first thing I would do is change the fact that I was transferring. I feel like that definitely played a part in our relationship disconnecting. It definitely hurts losing someone who played a huge part in your life. Especially when that person has been with you for 7 years.

I sit here now debating whether or not to post, because it felt good getting it off my chest and I feel like I can now try to create a relationship with someone else. I’m not held back by the thought of “what could have been” instead I’m here with the idea to live each day to the fullest and the past is in the past. Nothing can change things that happened, but it’s what I can do now that will dictate who I become as a person.

If she somehow sees this and puts the pieces together, just know I’m happy for you. I’m really happy to see you get out of your comfort zone and enjoy everything around you. I know whoever you are with definitely will make you happy. But I think it’s time I let go and start looking after myself.

Thank you for everything!