Me (M) 23 going to be 24 soon but I'm at a point in my existence I'm waking up miserable I have a family who love me despite my constant failure and a decent job after being poor for the majority of my existence even dating and sex has felt very unfulfilling to me I'm not sure of my root issue I did break up with my ex over several months ago and think of him very often occasional bump into him when I travel for work in his home city and it's a horrible feeling we tend to ignore each other if we ever encounter each other in public which I accept because I originally broke off the relationship so I feel like any attempt for me to reach out is pure selfish behaviour and I've recently been focusing my energy back into working out and old hobbies but there's just an deeply primal feeling I never be happy again almost someone ripped apart of my very soul out and day by day I'm losing core traits and attributes about myself I've been to various doctors Psychologists and have gotten a mixture of responses but I still have no firm reason why I feel this way I just want to feel some semblance of normal again or even be able to function without existing in this