I've been questioning my sexuality for a while as an early 20s male and this experience has helped in a lot of ways. I like girls romantically. I'm pretty confident now I'm demiromantic, we'll get to the girl I found out with. I've been thinking I'm some flavor of asexual for a while but it's slow going. I'm probably a very attractive guy and I'm realizing this now. I'm realizing that girls flirt with me sometimes. Both my parents were models too. I also bodybuild and I'm around 6% bodyfat. I'm also very very giggly and adventurous, I think all these things might be making me attractive to girls, so there's pressure on that front now that I recognize it. Basically I was thinking I was just asexual maybe aromantic because I would've found someone I could like by now. It turns out I did. I didn't realize I was developing feelings for her for the past year. Not in love, but I see her as a potential partner and romantically very attractive. This was a first for me, but now I know I just had to meet the right girl and have a very VERY strong emotional bond with her.anyways I told her I was afraid of falling in love with her, and she just told me flat out she's not attracted to me. She also told me she's asexual which I sort of didn't see coming but obv don't care especially considering I prob am too. I didn't say anymore after that but yeah this was my first ever rejection. This last year I talk to her pmich every day or so and I would say she the closest person to me rn. I trust her more than my therapist. I think I'm coming out the other side of the rejection now because this was a few months ago and now I'm mostly at peace with it and still good friends. If I'm not in love with her I still have love for her and that's fine.i give it freely and like seeing her happy, I'm compersive for her. Her not liking me back just means she doesn't like me. Dont hit me with some "she's not ready for you" cope shit either. Her not liking me means SHE DOESNT LIKE ME" and that's fine. I like her but it wasn't mutual so I'm moving on from that thought, still as good of friends as ever. I hope she doesn't change her mind later and start liking me that way because I'm moving on and I'll try again if I meat some other girl I want to share with.