I hate everything about my life. i have no friends. I live in a rural house and have no where to go. I have no money and my job is miserable. I’m forced to do online school because of where I live and I’m failing horribly, I’m almost definitely gonna have to do a repeat year which is fucking awful. I have no future, i have no motivation to do anything so my work ethic is terrible, i’m not gonna have enough money for college and i’m not gonna be able to get a scholarship or get it paid for another way. The only few people i actually care and i know really care about me are over 1000 miles away where I used to live and I barely talk to them anymore. I love my family but I can’t stand living with them anymore, my parents just get mad at me every time i talk because i’m not successful in anything i do. i don’t know how i’m going to be able to move out. i don’t do anything in my free time other than sit around because like i said i have no where to go, my internet sucks so i can barely use it for anything other than youtube sometimes and other social media. i’m going to kill myself everyday is miserable and the same i can’t do it anymore