This is a weird situation for me, I'm 19 and only starting dating/talking to girls about a year ago. The first girl I ever had feelings for and I fell for eachother instantly, over 2 weeks I was closer to her than anybody I had ever known. Over the course of a month or so we got so ridiculously close to eachother and I was certain I would end up marrying her.

However she fell into a deep depression and told me to go, leave her alone as she wasn't in a good spot for a relationship at the moment. I was pretty upset but I felt like I had to let her go. We went no contact because I couldn't bare just being friends because I liked her so much.

Now here I am almost a year later and I still think about her every single day. I dated about 6 other girls since but nobody could match up, I never felt about any of them the way I felt about her. I seriously can't really think of being with anyone else, I've day dreamed a million scenarios where we meet back up and fall in love and get married. I just feel like I'd do absolutely anything for her. I don't really want to have kids but if we were married and she wanted them I'd do it.

Don't really know why I've written this out, I just needed to get this out there.