Hey there,

Okay, so, I’m just going to dive right in because if I don’t, I’ll probably chicken out and this will never see the light of day. I’m Julia, and I’m 19, and I have a huge crush on you. Yeah, I said it. It’s out there now, and I’m kind of freaking out because what if you read this and think I’m totally weird?

I’ve been wanting to tell you for, like, forever, but every time I try to talk to you, my brain decides to take a vacation to Mars or something. You make me so nervous, and I swear, I forget how to even string words together. Like, remember that time in the library when I saw you, and all I managed to say was "hi" in this squeaky voice? I wanted to ask you about the book you were reading because it looked so cool, but nope, my brain was like, "Nope, we're shutting down."

I guess what I’m trying to say is, I think you’re amazing. You have this laugh that kind of makes the world feel a bit less heavy, and your passion for whatever you’re into at the moment is just... inspiring. I love how you don’t care if people think you’re geeky for loving sci-fi or whatever; it’s just you, and that’s pretty awesome.

And okay, confession time - I’ve been going to the coffee shop near campus more often because I know you work there sometimes. I sit there, pretending to study, but really, I’m just trying to summon the courage to talk to you. I swear, I’ve probably read the same paragraph in my textbook like ten times without even absorbing a word because I was too busy trying to catch your eye or come up with something clever to say.

I’m not usually this awkward; I promise I can be pretty cool when I’m not totally crushing on someone. I mean, I love music - I play the guitar, not that I’m good or anything, but I love it. And I’m into photography; I capture moments, the kind that make you feel something deep inside. I’d love to show you some of my photos one day, or maybe we could go take some together if that’s not too far.

So, I guess what I’m asking, in my very roundabout, super awkward way, is if maybe you’d like to hang out sometime?. We could go for a walk, or grab a coffee (not at your work, unless you want to), or just chill and talk about anything. I’d really like to get to know you better, outside of my head where I’ve probably built you up into this perfect person (though, you might just be perfect, who knows?).

If this is too much, I totally get it. I mean, I’ll probably need to hide under my bed for a week if you say no, but I’ll survive. But if you feel like maybe, just maybe, you’d like to see what this could be, I’d be over the moon.

Thanks for reading this, even if it’s a bit all over the place. Here’s hoping I didn’t scare you off.
Julia