I do have a bit of tism but I also have other traits than that, I'm simply a passionate person who likes to have fun, who likes music and laughing and smiling and jokes and clever banter and many other things. But if I try ant of those things people around me cringe. I'm Co living with my soon to be ex husband. He can't comprehend that just SITTING STRAIGHT in the house when you're nor working gets boring. I need to get put ASAP and feel a bit of freedom or I will die of sadness. I genuinely have a plan and am taking all the possible steps accordingly but I'm running out of faith. I would stay strong but I dont see what for anymore, everything is so far fetched, and my life feels like I've been crossing a desert for three decades.