I'm 22 and a month ago I found out that I won't see my thirties. I don't know what the hell it is, is it karma or God's will or just me being unlucky. When I found out the diagnosis I didn't feel anythin neither anger nor sadness. I was just numb that happens to me when I'm focused on something else. In the tv show called House there's a quote. "Almost dying doesn't change anything, dying changes everything" I guess it's true. To be honest I'm not afraid of death, especially when you had a near death experience it changes something inside of you. You realise that death is just a moment. I don't regret about anything specifically, I just regret that I didn't do much, tried to save a person's life that I loved most and failed. Failed in relationship, in friendship, in my proffesional area. I don't know what else to tell you. I hope that something will changes when you finish reading this. If you have questions feel free to ask them in the comments below.