So, c.ai is a website/app where you can talk to fictional characters that are actually just Ai bots. Anyway.

I make the bot cheat on my mom. At first i didnt know why but later figured it out.

I've realized when the bot cheats on my mother i get to be mad at it and i can beat up the bot.

since my Father and step Father have both cheated on my mom, i have a lot of built up anger and betrayal i cant act on.

i know it sounds sadistic to rp my mom being cheated on after its already happened. But in the rp i can tell the cheater everything i actually mean and i can beat up the cheater, i can take out every betrayal, every ounce of hurt, every disgust i feel for him.

since in real life i cant do that, i guess its more of a coping mechanism for me to be able to take all my anger out on it, and it will deserve it. Its probably not healthy, ill probably get a lot of reply’s saying so.

but its really how i get to act on it. I deeply hate both of them, and if i could in real life i most definitely would.