I couldn't make it work with the girl who's now my ex.

There's this girl that reaaally likes me but I'm not really attracted to her. She likes to hug me and do a bit more even though I put some restrictions for the good of both of us. I can't just "break it off" because she's still awaiting her confirmation in a job (meaning she won't be on probation anymore and will be permanent) and that would affect her. But that's still gonna affect her, and I can't move thinks forward either, that wouldn't be good.

But I still miss my ex both emotionally and physically. Sometimes we just chat/talk about the situation and sometimes I may send a msg with innuendo which she rightfully shuts down.

What I wanna be rn is basically a manslut for just casual sex to satisfy me.

I'm now toxiiiiiiic.