And this all happened about a year ago while I was at work, I was working away on a electricl control panel for a machine and then suddenly I just really started to think about death. I know everyone knows that they will die eventually but have you actually really thought about it?

I then started trying to think what my life was before birth and I also really started thinking about what happens when I die. If nothing happens and we just no longer exist then why should I have empathy for my fellow human because he/shes life also doesnt matter like mine? Why make an effort of being a nice person if god doesnt exist and that I wont get punished?

I then started thinking "Well how can nothing happen after death when we came from nothing"? So why would the process of going from non-existance to existance, then back to non-existance happen the once?

I then started thinking "How do I know everyone is actually real and that they all exist inside my consiousness?" And then thought "maybe im already dead?"

I then started think that there must be a creator because as someone who does a bit of programming when I look at the world it feels like there is a publisher (A god). The laws of physics are the rules set (the code) and the laws of physics is always limited by the speed of light (the processing speed).

I wish I never thought like this, these thoughts came on so random and since then I just cant enjoy life.