For the last year, I have been on a weight loss journey and I’m proud to say that I have lost over 100 pounds in total but since February of last year when I got serious, I’ve lost 80 pounds. And I think I look pretty good. Here’s where I become a horrible fucking person.

When I look at old pictures of myself, I become horribly disgusted with the way I used to look even looking at pictures from 3/4 months ago makes me feel repulsed with the way I looked. Now by no means do I look like a bodybuilder just yet but I look a lot better than I used to.

The problem is even though just a year ago I was a fat ass I now am disgusted when I see another fat ass person if they’re not in the gym. I hate how judgmental I have become, and when I stop and think I feel really horrible as a person because I know what it was like to be that big or that heavy and sometimes not know where or how to start and funny thing I went to school for sports medicine

So I do not feel like I have the right or should be hard on anyone else when I know how hard it can be to lose or maintain weight. I know that my current work schedule completely allows for me to easily access the gym and I’m making enough money to make healthier dietary choices and can purchase almost anything I want and that’s not the case for everyone else.

So again, I really hate how judgmental I have become, and I really hope therapy in doing a deep dive of myself will help me to overcome this because I never want to hurt or upset anyone else the way that I was hurt by other people when I was fat!

To my fellow humans, I’m sorry I’m a piece of shit right now.