I have lived all of my 42 years on this earth as a straight man (except for a little making out and touching one time back in the day), and recently got divorced. Since so much of my life is a fresh start, I have started thinking about my sexuality and how I want to live the rest of my life, and I guess I can just say that I want to try a lot of things, and hopefully keep trying new things until the day I die.

So I went to a sex shop and got a little 6.5-inch simple hot pink dildo, and thought I would see what it felt like to suck on it while I jerked off, etc. It was surprisingly hot, and it just made me want to take all of it. The deeper I took it, the sloppier it got with all the saliva it was triggering. That was hot too - using the thick saliva to jerk off this hot-pink rubberized dildo felt unexpectedly amazing. Eventually I worked my way to the bottom, let my throat relaxed and deepthroated the whole thing. Swallowed it. I could even give it several thrusts without gagging, just coming up for air and to play around with the rhythm. I impressed myself.

I understand now why it's called a "job", and the only thing missing from the experience that I didn't get any "reward" at the end of it. Again, didn't expect to feel that way but after deepthroating that thing I felt I deserved to get something out of it. Needless to say, I'm now thinking about finding a nice, clean, big IRL cock to try my skills out on.

So yeah I guess this confession is that I'm pretty gay! Much more bi than I've certainly ever allowed myself to be. And it feels good. New superpower unlocked.