I never thought I’d be writing one of these, but here goes...

I’m a pro tennis player, competing at international level, and I have a massive crush on my pro coach whose been with me for years.

He’s v supportive, motivating, but what I didn’t realise was that he somehow crept into my mind completely against my better judgment.

I’ve always respected him, and his ability to believe in me when I can’t always believe in myself. I can’t pinpoint the moment, but over time, I started developing feelings for him. At first, I brushed it off as silly admiration, but then came the sleepless nights and long hours spent wondering, “What if he hand slipped down my back slightly more...?”

And think my bf suspects.

A few months ago, somehow—somehow—I managed to utter my coach's name in my sleep. And my boyfriend heard it.

He confronted me the next morning, things a little strained. I don’t want to lose my relationship, but I also can’t stop thinking about how… easy it would be to seduce him on tour. There have been signs he'd be open to it... Struggling with emotions like a teenager.

Any advice is appreciated. Thank you for listening to my ramble.