Before you say anything, it’s not inherently a sexual thing. I just like the feeling of wearing a collar and having a leash attached. I let my friend (who’s the only person IRL who knows) hold the leash while we hang out in their house. Like if I do something they don’t like, they give it a tug and tell me no. And I can’t explain how it makes me feel, but I like it a lot.

I have a lot of abandonment issues from past trauma and stuff, and being on a leash, kept close to someone I trust just makes me feel safe. The controlling stuff also makes me feel like I’m being looked after. Like I’m tethered to them. And they won’t ever leave.

Obviously I’m very embarrassed about this weird little thing I have, so yeah.. sorry if it’s weird.