I (22F) recently lost my virginity at the start of the month; he was really respectful, experienced and made sex an option and not a demand. To top it all off, he was so good looking. We ended up going on a date a week later, and he was so genuine; blushing at every compliment, openly sharing details about his life and all round just being a great person. It ended with him coming round to mine afterwards, and I definitely enjoyed it more now that I had the first time over with lol.

I was looking forward to experiencing more intimacy with him, purely because he didn't make me feel like an object of desire/another hole to be filled. I asked to see him again this week, but he unfortunately revealed that he had some personal stuff to sort out (revolving around leaving his job and such) and basically expressed that he didn't want to lead me on/drag me into his current dilemma. Whilst I appreciated the honesty (seriously - he could have just ghosted me and blocked, but chose to tell me the truth and even said he'd let me know if anything changes), I couldn't help but suddenly feel like "Shit...I finally found someone who's the whole package, but it'll never go further than it has".

Not seeing him anymore made me suddenly realise how much I craved physical intimacy, compared to before when I used to not have a high libido at all. I've tried pleasuring myself, but it just doesn't hit the same as a physical person there, y'know? I'm trying to tell myself I'll find someone like him again who's the whole package AND available for building a relationship, but goddamn it just fucking sucks that I got a taste of something good and then lost it almost as fast as gaining it...

Edit: P.S. This post is not an invite for you to DM me asking about what my first time was like...we're strangers on the internet, I don't want to tell you intimate details about my body bruv