Please don’t judge me.

I don’t intend to ever cheat on my bf, nor do I intend to break up with him, and that’s why this is messing with my head so much.

I genuinely want to know if people think about this sometimes, or if this is just a weird thought that never goes into people in happy relationships minds.

So, here’s a bit of context: me and my bf (both in our late twenties) fell in love quite quickly after we met. We are very compatible in almost every aspect. We are great friends, we love each other and always respect each other. I love him to death, and truly think he’s one of the greatest person to ever exist.

But here’s the thing: I’m way more sexual than him. I have a very high sex drive, and I love to get horny attention from men. He knows about this, we were always honest with each other since the beginning, but lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the fact that I will never get to have a sexual experience with another man that isn’t him.

Although I love him very much, feeling that thrill from the first times you fuck someone, is something I know I’ll miss forever.

I know he’s not on board with an open relationship, since we already discussed it (and I respect the way he feels about that).

Having only this two options - being with him, or getting to fuck other men ever again, I will always chose the first option, but there’s still a part of me that feels sad about it.

Please be honest, does this happen to other people in loving relationships? I could really use some insights on this matter.