Fucked my drug dealer

After 10 years my fiancé left me. I never cheated. I was always loyal, and I took care of her and my two kids. I was the breadwinner. I had a slight drug problem, but never let it get in the way of our living. We always paid the bills. We always have what we wanted when she left. I made the decision to fuck my female drug dealer. I wasn’t getting anything out of it. Play my eyes. It was payback for the way. She left me after 10 years. She wrote me a two page letter and sent it over Text message. A year before she had left and fucked multiple people acted like a whore and when she got in trouble, she came crawling back. Turns out. The only reason she came back is because she had nowhere else to go. She played and used me for everything I was willing to give her. I got her a job, a new car I helped pay her credit card bills. When she was comfortable and could support herself she left me. I caught her fucking around with somebody else after she told me she was leaving to better herself and not interested in sex. So when I found out, I went right for my drug dealer. one night I my dealers earrings in my bed for my ex to find. she would come to the house in the morning to watch the kids. She even thought they were her earrings. The last encounter I had with my dealer She got so drunk at my house. She ended up pissing my bed and threw up everywhere. Then My dealer bought me a new mattress and I gave the old one to my ex and she slept on it for months…….funny right?