Let me just say that I’m a male in my mid 30s and I would never under any circumstances get back together with my ex, even if she came begging on her hands and knees. I am 90% over her, but that doesn’t change the fact that I still miss the relationship we had together, and potential of what we could have been.

I have done everything imaginable to put this person out of my mind. I’ve had multiple sexual partners and relationships in the 5 years since we’ve been broken up. I’ve made new friends, traveled the world, gotten healthier, and focused on my career. In the early days I was near catatonic. Could barely function in day to day life. But I worked hard to move on and I feel nearly there.

Seeing that she is now engaged to the guy she chose over me, it is bringing up a lot of feelings. Why couldn’t it have been me? It should have been me… We could’ve had that and it would’ve been special.

I know people say true love never truly leaves you, but I want it gone. I don’t want to be tied to this personally mentally or emotionally any longer. She has undoubtedly changed so much and is not the same person as she was when we were together. No matter how much I tell myself to let it go and wipe her from memory, I can’t.

I miss what we had and have not found that type of love since. I experienced it before her, so I know it is possible to find that love, but it’s so hard to find someone that checks all the boxes I look for in a partner. I refuse to settle for anything less than the type of love we had together.

That’s it. That’s my rant. “Take it day by day” right? “It’ll get better with time.” Sure.