It started off as a distraction from a bad break up. I was lonely, had been disconnected from family and friends. And was feeling like I didn’t know what to do to make myself feel better. I decided that if a man was just going to use me for sex then I wanted to at least get something In return. Plus I just wanted to feel desired. So i put an ad on CL personals looking to meet up at the end of my street. And a lot of people responded.

The first time was scary and I was unsure how it would go. I asked if I could have the hundred dollars ahead of time and then I sucked his dick until he came. I charged for the hour but he came In 5 minutes. He was equally as nervous and seemed like he wanted to get outta there.

So I kept answering emails.

It was actually exhilarating and exciting to see nervous men just pull their cock out.

I decided to quit. And years later, I still miss it.

In Colorado Springs