I know this is crazy and stupid. Don't worry I know I am just a friend. I am someone who likes hugs. We barely talk mostly in passing. I don't know what's wrong in my head. Yes, I love my wife. I don't know who I would be without her. Mostly my head likes to wonder as most people know. I never had a wild side. I never party. I never got to play the field so my oats. I went from being a high school teenager with next to no friends. To get in a relationship out of high school. Don't get me wrong the last 25y would never give them up. But my brain is always like what if? I go from. I like to party with her and get to know her. If someone has never been blackout drunk I like to get to know her more. And if she sits on my face once and I get see her nude win . I want to grab her ass but I am too scared to even try . Not losing my life and job over a random creepy thing. But I know that would never happen. Because I'm disgusting But it's there. I know you're probably thinking wow this guy is crazy and a dumb ass. I just am tried of all this high school shit . I know u are to. People saying this and that about you. I am always like . I really don't care she search a B . I am Ike in my head people are hateful. But I love to have her on my face. What do the say about me? But like you don't care. I know I am a Fat POS . But I have my family only thing that keeps me straight. With out them . I be dead are next to nothing.Don't know why I am writing this. Sorry it's so long. I am just a crazy MF . People talk about people. I know just know it's not me . I do pop the most random shit out my mouth. It is my brain testing the waters. Sorry for snapping you off and on it just my thoughts 💭 I always try not too do it there response was . “ don’t be so hard on yourself. I will hug you more “…….