Politically I'm super left and all of my friends and people in my social scene are very left, LGTBQ , and I feel like in pretty much most ways I'm an ally and an advocate for causes of civl rights, women's equality, and social justice in general

But for some reason it gets me really hard to be bad, to want to be a total misogynist and to degrade/violate my partner sexually.. I get turned on by the idea of being a fascist and dominating/brainwashing/sexually breaking a feminist into being a total whore.. I get turned on thinking about having total power and control over another person and making them submit to me sexually.. I feel like I have a lot of anger and sexual frustration towards women that I want to take out on them in the walls of their pussies