(M20)Reddit I have to confess this somewhere because if I don’t i think i’m going to lose my mind. Today my hormones was on 10 and i don’t have any women in my phone i can just call for a quick one night stand so i did the next vest thing, went on the internet and looked for local escorts in my town.

While looking i came across an ad for a massage parlor mainly advertising there happy endings and exotic women they have. The number was in the ad so I texted them and asked what are there prices and luckily it was within my budget. so I went and when i did that my inner gut went to shit along with my experience. first off the woman looked nothing like either of the women in the photos but I was like fuck it (no pun intended) I’ve done far worst before. BIGGEST MISTAKE. After i entered she greeted me to the atm machine because they only take cash. man i hope that machine didn’t take any of my data from my card. but anyway after i withdrawn the money she took it and escorted me to our room where she asked me what i wanted HJ or Sex and i said Sex then she proceeded to hand me a condom and we did the deed.

It was so awful her breath was stinkng and she wasn’t even attractive to me which is weird because i’m mainly attracted to this ethnicity. Her form and arch was all bad and just everything about it was overall terrible i could even finish in fact i went limp after 5 minutes. The fact that her breath stunk and i can still smell it even long after the experience was over single handily killed my attraction and kink for this certain ethnicity, out of respect and for the safty of the general population of said ethnicity i wont mention it but just know i don’t think i can find another one attractive without thinking of today. It was so bad that immediately afterwards i asked for the bathroom so i can scrub my D*** with hand soap and water just to clean myself then proceed to pull over on the way home to the nearest mcdonalds and do it again.

For months now Ive been contemplating whether i should go to the military i’ve been procrastinating on making a decision and putting it off, but do to today’s experience Im not only positive that i want to go to improve my self but now i want to go to punish myself and overall gain a better sense of discipline. I will be contacting the nearest air force recruiter and conversate about joining tomorrow.

To all the young men like me. Don’t nt do it i physically thrown up on the way home