Before you get mad at me my bf is maybe a narcissist. He’s verbally and emotionally abusive. He’s really hot and funny and he pays a lot of the bills but he’s just not the guy for me. He says he’ll go to therapy and never does, makes me cry all the time and the only reason I stay is because eventually he apologizes and is nice to me for a day.

But I’ve decided I don’t want to be with him and I also don’t want to work. I want to be a stay at home wife, a trophy wife, whatever. I’m ready to start dating for lifestyle and not looks. I bought a bunch of books about leveling up and dating higher value men and I’m going to start dating while we are on our weird break thing. And I’m going to find someone with money who actually values me and wants to take care of me.

Like it would be one thing to deal with his attitude and get to stay home, but he actually expects me to work full time and put in half of my pay check on top of doing everything and dealing with him. That’s not the life I want.

And I know people are going to ask why don’t I leave now? Because then I’d have to move to an apartment and pay like $1000 in rent and all my bills myself. At least staying here I get to split bills and he pays for a lot of the food and going out and stuff. So if I stay with him for now I can save money and I can use that money on my wardrobe and taking myself out to meet people.