Male, 28, living in the UK and recently divorced.

I had to wait nearly 2 years for it to go through the courts.

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I was in a relationship for 6 years and married in 2022. In the same month we got married we separated, after I found she was having an affair.
I moved out, she got the house, I got the car and we went our own paths of life however I don't think I can ever recover from this.

I understand that people change and can grow distant but I don't think I did anything wrong, to deserve the betrayal I feel now. I worshipped the ground she walked on. Gave her strength when no one else would. I tried my best to be the world's best boyfriend, lover, husband, teacher, a shoulder to cry on, etc.

I was whatever she needed me to be and yet she cast me aside saying "it wasn't enough."

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Since all this I have thought of multiple ways to take my own life and the only thing stopping me are my friends and family. Although I don't know how long they can keep the feelings at bay.

I'm seeking help and I'm on meds but this loneliness has left me to become a fragile shell of a man I once was.

I don't know who I am anymore.

None of my hobbies bring me joy.

And to top it all off, I was fired from my job because of my depression.

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Currently, I just want to be wrapped up in a woman's arms, told it's gonna be ok. I want feel wanted, to feel loved and cared for.

I need compassion in my life, but I get beaten down to the bottom of the barrel over and over again.

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I'm tired of the worlds expectations...

I'm just so very tired of trying.