It's time for me to make a confession. I like to train often and always try to improve my form. Sometimes I film myself training from time to time. I know that a lot of people look at me funny, but I don't care. I do it for myself and to document my progress.

One day, something incredible happened. I was training in my gym as usual when suddenly a man came up to me. I knew who he was straight away. I see him there regularly and find him so attractive that I never dared to approach him. As you can imagine, I also stalked his Instagram account and therefore already knew a lot about him.

When he walked past me, he accidentally bumped into my iphone. He immediately apologized and picked up my phone to start a new video for me. But then something happened that made my world stand still. When he went to go to the camera app, he took a look at the apps I had open and saw that I had his Instagram profile open. I can't tell you how much I hoped he hadn't seen it. I was so embarrassed and couldn't look him in the eye. I quickly grabbed the phone and he just smiled charmingly.

I would have loved to disappear into thin air at that moment. Since then, I haven't dared to look at him. He still greets me and has even invited me for a protein shake, but I feel ashamed. I've tried everything to forget the whole thing, but I can't. It makes me so uncomfortable and I don't know how to act towards him.

I wish I could turn back time and undo everything. But I know that's not possible. I just hope that he hasn't labeled me as crazy or a stalker and that I'll find the strength to apologize to him at some point. I don't think anyone wants a situation like that, but sometimes things happen that you can't control. I will continue to train and improve, but I will probably prefer to do it without a camera in future.