Well, I can trust my parents… and maybe one of my siblings.

But… I’ve spent my entire life having my trust in people just absolutely betrayed in one way or another, every single time. Friends who wouldn’t help me when I was in need, no matter how many times I helped without having to be asked, or stood up for them; who shared things I told them in confidence with other people in our circles. Broken promises, intentional wounds…

Girlfriends who cheated on me and lied to my face when I was suspicious.

It’s all made me feel at times like it’s not even worth having human connection anymore, or any kind of vulnerability. Every single time I let someone in, they fuck me over, or I find out that they’re a garbage human and I’m left wondering how I could have gone so long without noticing.

I used to think I had a really good sense for people, but I don’t even feel like I can trust how I fed about the people I meet anymore, and it’s left me feeling completely empty and alone, and life is starting to feel like a pointless journey to nowhere.