I am a F in my early thirties and have always, ALWAYS had a high sex drive. Even as a young child I was masturbating just because it felt good, and often. No one showed me how, I was never molested and I had no sexual influences like porn etc. I really hope no creeps run with this idea but it is a real confession to describe objectively how it is for me. It just felt good and I explored more.

I accidentally (took my own virginity -> broke my own hymen) at 12 years old because I craved penetration so much I used (a phallic object I had around the house) inside me and ended up popping my own cherry without realizing.

At 13 I was sneaking out to kiss boys, and at 15 I lost my virginity to my first love.

At some point I realized I was kissing, fooling around with, and sometimes sleeping with a reasonable amount of people. I wondered if I should slow down and keep my body count lower, but eventually realized my sex drive was so high that I didn’t want to suffer through life in dry spells. So I promised myself to never go longer than a year without sex (which is the longest amount of time so far).

The sex drive has not slowed with age. I have slowed down on my sexual partners, keeping the same one for longer in relationships, but have decided the last few years I would do well as a swinger when married one day.

At the moment I am currently single without a main sexual partner, and not in a phase where I want random hookups but trying to be patient for a serious relationship.

Also currently on an extended vacation with family where I have little privacy… and I am dyingggg with horniness because I cannot release it.

I am not writing this to turn anyone on, I am literally confessing. My clit is throbbing all day, and the outer lips of my vagina sometimes clench like it is hungry to wrap around a phallic object. My g-spot will even pulse in need to be poked by a hard, thrusting sensation.

Again, I am not trying to even write a sex story. It’s genuinely hard to concentrate when I want to release these sensations and they just last all day.

Also, another problem… my last few sex partners and relationships actually couldn’t keep up with my insatiable sex appetite. I only need it one to three times a day, maybe 5-6 times a week. Most men want this in their fantasy but cannot provide in reality. They feel stressed and pressured because they want to provide but sometimes just can’t. This leaves me feeling like I’m always initiating, which as a woman makes me feel undesired. My last bf joked it was his “wifely duty” to provide sex for me, like I’m a horny husband and he is just fulfilling his obligation. Ick. Made me just feel so… gross and like pity sex. Even though I know he was trying to just please me and found me attractive enough.

Anyways, idk why I’m confessing this other than I have no man in my life right now, I have so many physical sensations trapped in my body, and also realizing I feel like a creep in real life (off the internet, because men love to hit up the chat box when horny but it’s not interesting for me, I need the real deal and someone in the same sexual energy as me, which let’s be honest most aren’t checking those boxes).

Sometimes I find myself staring at men’s pants in an attempt to see their penis outline, similar to how men stare at women’s breasts. Or fantasizing about being penetrated at random moments.

I am starting to feel silly for wanting and initiating sex all the time in relationships. And feeling too physically driven. I don’t want to change it, I’m very grateful for my healthy sex drive. I just want a serious partner who is on the same level as me, maybe even desires it more than me.

I am definitely suffering right now with no way to release… and before you think to message me, don’t. It doesn’t provide any relief and I have no benefit to sext. You are welcome to discuss similar challenges though without attempting to role play anything.