I(40f) have always had an appreciation for the female body and have had fantasies of being with another woman. I also have a vivid fantasy of doing this with my husband. However, we have just recently gotten back together after a very painful 5 month separation in which I found out he was sleeping with myself and a coworker. We’ve been working through a lot of our issues (in lots of therapy) and have really opened up about our desires (in addition to other issues) and this fantasy of mine came out. I downloaded and app designed for finding a third and was ok until he began looking at it with me and I was immediately uncomfortable and all the pain from his infidelity and lies came rushing in. I want to do this for me. I don’t want to do it for him or in an effort to keep him…I’ve also wondered if I should just do it without him…