Hello, 24 M.

Before the massage, quick backstory.

I was in the army. I was a medic. In medic training there was this girl in my class I really liked. We got stationed together in Fort Riley, Kansas. We had mutual friends at the base, two weekends in a row we partied at a friend’s house off base. First weekend, we all played this sexual card game. Her and I picked each other, we were into each other. She took her top off in front of everyone and I didn’t want the guys to see, I wanted her just for me, so I was hugging her from behind using my arm to cover her tits. She didn’t mind. She picked me to make out with. Anyways, we ended leaving to a bedroom not longer after that. We didn’t have sex we just used hands and made each other cum.

Anyways, next day I thought we were gonna be a couple. I was into her. She confessed she wasn’t into me in that way, that hurt.

Next weekend, we’re partying at the same house. The sex card game comes out again, and this time she starts picking other guys to do shit with. I was hurt. Got too drunk to smother my feelings. I was the first one to fall asleep. I woke up to the sounds of moaning, I get up and walk in on one of my bros and her fucking. I was hurt. First thing I did when they noticed me was I asked if it was consensual first of all. I asked that cause I knew the guys all liked her besides me and I didn’t know if they took advantage of her while she was drunk. She said yes it was, I went outside and cried. Looking back, I understand I shouldn’t have been so attached when she told me she didn’t want to be in a relationship right now. I’m okay with that, I just didn’t adjust fast enough.

Anyways, I slept at the house, I left bright and early ASAP. I was like “I’m feeling a lot of pain, I’m gonna treat myself.” I went to this massage place 20 mins away. It wasn’t my first massage ever, but first at this place. They asked me to change, get naked, whatever. During the massage I quickly noticed something was different. Typically they have a towel over you. The massage woman slowly started exposing my body. I was turned on. She didn’t ask, but I didn’t mind, she put massage lube on my dick and started jerking me off. She was standing behind my head, near the top of the table. She started thrusting her pelvic area onto my head. I was still really hurt from everything the night before, so I was conflicted. I tried touching her zipper area, and she was okay with that. About 2 mins of this and I said I couldn’t continue. I was really hurt. I told her what happened and why I couldn’t continue. She seemed disappointed but understood. I did give her a huge tip though. She was nice. My head just wasn’t in the right place. True story, april 2021.