I've come to the realization that I'm not just asexual. I'm actually attracted to girls romantically and sexually, so I'm straight. Regular straight guy. I thought for a long time because I hated sex that I was asexual because I like the love aspect and loving a girl and her loving g me back and being sweet and shit. But now I'm realizing that I like receiving things like pleasure but not giving them. It wasn't that I wasn't attracted to them, I was just annoyed. I dont like sex because it feels like a chore reciprocating. I just dont like it. Simple. Going down on her, or even just doing the thrusting myself missionary vs like cowgirl and being ridden is just work to me. I'm okay with hard work and suffering for a purpose but I just don't like this. Then I looked and realized that I just liked being loved and I like loving because it gets me more of that in return, not because I enjoy it innately. I broke up with my gf because I don't think its fair to her. Either I'm not mature enough for a relationship or sex, or I'm just very very selfish with maturity and I'm just an asshole. I'd rather serve myself than someone else even if they give back to me, it's just not fufilling to me. So I guess I'm just selfish.