When friends and everyone else are talking about girls a n big titties and booties and how much they like them and would love to just rub their face in them it makes me kind of uncomfortable. I am a straight man, this is not vile to me, it's just very unsettling because it feels kind of evil. This is kind of embarrassing to admit as a guy, but the actual thing that makes my tummy flutter and breathe heavy is a girl saying I love you. Beyond that just a girl loving me is arousing, and if she has big bobs that really just a bonus that I get to squeeze and poke and sleep on like chest pillows. I know sexual gratification shouldn't make me uncomfortable but it actually does. I just don't feel good at the thought of thinking of boobies unless there is a girl I REALLY care about attached to them. It's always been like this too. My dad used to show me naked and topless pictures of girls when I was little and I would just lie and pick one, but really I didn't like any of them because they made me scared to look at and guilty and ashamed after.