I'm not an adonis, but I am very attractive and pretty tall. This allows me to get away with so much shit I shouldn't be able to just because of the halo effect. I tell people things they want to hear and lie about things that make me look bad to make it believable. I dont care about what people think of me in the sense that I value other peoples opinions, but I do keep track of it because that determines how hard I'll need to push to get things or how much I can get away with. One of my hardest challenges is pretending I care about other people. I don't have distain for other people, and I'm not malicious or sadistic. But that being said, I don't care about the outcome of anything that doesn't pertain to me. I have conplete apathy for anything at least indirectly outside of myself. Mass shooting? Why are you telling me. Natural disaster? Ok so what. You want to tell me a story of you handled your breakup badly after I asked you for some information? I'll remember that for later and use the Intel if I can. I'm extremely high functioning and I know I have to be some degree of forced altruism in order to get certain things in life I want, the difference is I get no Intrinsic reward from it and I'm doing it consciously. I would say, honestly, that antisocial personality disorder is just as severe and afflicting a neurodivergence as autism or ADHD or OCD or that shit. I even pretend to be unhappy a lot to be relatable, but my real feeling pretty much all the time is just complete calm and apathetic. I simply do not care.