[Renorse] I'm 19 and going to college with no loans because my dad is paying for my education. I've struggled on and off with depression for the last 5 years or so. I attempted suicide once and have thought about it countless times since. I have plenty of friends and hold a position in my fraternity but I still just feel like I'm not happy. I have a job for the summer but dread every moment that I'm there (I'm here now unfortunately). Over the past year mostly is when I've heavily considered suicide as an option also the ability to just dissapear and go to a new state and start a new life and hope I feel better about my life.

I've cut myself before and it help with how I feel for a short time before it came back again