I met my bf in 2019 around October i instantly loved her she completed me we made a big promise in 2020 and now its like we cant have fun we don't "connect" like we use to ... i really cant help but think she found "new friends" and that theyre "connecting " like we were in 2019 ... which sucks bc i never made "connections" w anyone since i met them to watch a fire burn out and just be chill ... years ago id felt like it be the end of me but now it just feels dull ... im not dumb i just dont except anyone else to love and be as good as a "Friend" as myself its funny living with a guilty friend one who believes they're "coded" ... its a word i cant explain it makes me think of my "dreams" to travel FAR AWAY from here i want to feel like me again ... i am so many things desperate isnt me this friend also got me really sick and now i dont wanna give my cold to someone else ... and im wondering if they care about sharing the same cold i caught from them it was never my plan to live together FOREVER BUT THEY ASKED ME TO BEGGED ME TO ... but its funny to me because she forgets im a strong man with passion ... i dont cry over bad *friends theyre gonna receive theyre down vote IRL eventually when everyones got their cold and their "Roomate" moves out 😊