I’ve known I was trans my whole life and I found out the term in 4th grade but I’m 19 now and I’ve been out on the internet for almost 2 years now but I can’t bring myself to tell my family…like my mother already knows and has been knowing for years that I’m attracted to solely women and so does my dad and paternal grandma but my grandad is someone who knows but will pretend he doesn’t and will mention a bfs to me or suggest girly hairstyles for me to get like idk how to work with someone like that and my mom was very homophobic in the past and didn’t like my masculinity and still kinda doesn’t. My mom only has two kids alive me and my brother and she always wanted a daughter and shames me for that and I just don’t want the argument or to get my feelings hurt but I don’t wanna hide I’d rather they know I’m trans then to accidentally find my socials and be surprised yk and I hate feeling like I’m afraid of my family at my adult ass age but I was always scared to voice my opinion and I was made to believe that’s how it should be for the longest time. I really wish I could just take control of my life and stop letting the fear of them knowing eat me up.