I always dreamed of attending the college I currently am enrolled at. I am a mechanical engineering major and I thought that is the only thing I wanted to do. I am living in what feels like a crisis after the past two years and I feel like there is so much I must do to attain my goals. I feel like everyday I must do something critical for my success but it always seems that I am just unproductive and down at the end of the day. I do smoke MJ most nights but never during school and I do understand it could add to my currently problem set, however, I have always had problems with the struggle of wanting to be successful. I failed my first class this week and decided that I was not going to take the class over the summer just because my mind is so overwhelmed with what I just got finished with and the enormous mountain I am yet to climb in the coming years. I just want to know what to do with myself. I have been questioning what I really want to do pretty hard over the last few years and now that I am at at point where I am getting into my desired field, I am more lost than ever. I'm not dropping out or changing anything I am doing based on the failure of one class, I just have no clue what to do or if what is in my mind is what I really want to do. Honestly just looking for advice from people who have been in similar situations (probably most students anyway) and how they figured out which path was the right one to go down before I end up spending a ton of money I do not even have yet on a path I might not follow.

I know there is no end-all answer to this problem I face daily, but where does the solution start?