I just got to 17 days sober today... I’m a 17 year old male and I was addicted for around 7 months... this really really sucks, and its a little weird posting this in the cocaine sub, but honestly i feel better posting here than the addicts or recovery subs... considering ive posted here when i was neck deep in my addiction. I want to do it again, eventually, not sure if thats a good idea though... but today, i finally feel good. And i may not be able to bring myself to leave this sub, but i believe im going to make it. Ive been doing drugs for far to long

It all started with a binge in october. Before that i really didnt do coke all that often, like every couple of months, and it was literally like 4 lines max... but this changed that. It lead to me moving out of my dads, and moving in with a fellow drug addict. We got 4 10 Milligram vials of acid and started buying grams every single night... also sometimes mixing in E and Molly sometimes, and ofc i got a cracker for nangs. I ended up almost completely destroying all of my relationships, including with my father and my whole family, all my friends. Even now im just reconnecting with these people. Its sometimes hard to feel like they really want to see me bc of my past.

Im very open about my addiction, and maybe thats a bad thing, but in my mind itll never end unless i tell people. I just want to stop hating myself.

Sorry for the long and kinda depressing story but i know you all will be the ones who really understand all that.