Before trying cocaine I used to think "I don't need cocaine to feel like Superman cause I'm already one" from the day I tried I realised I was lying to myself. I was never confident in my attitudes before doing it, but I could fake it. After trying it I could never feel like 'the guy'. I was never able to 'fake it till you make it' again.

Cocaine showed me what real confidence is like and now I can't just pretend that I'm Superman cause I know that's a lie. Without drugs to boost my social skills I'm just a shy, little guy in a corner that is always worried about what others gonna think about me.

I feel extremely uncomfortable meeting new people, I get nervous. I wasn't like that before. But when I do coke I'm back to being that person who has the balls to say what I really want. Without it I'm nothing. I don't even talk, always worried about what others think, so I just don't talk. When I'm skiing I don't feel like I'm bothering even tought I'm probably talking too much.

When I woke up the day after doing it, I knew my life wouldn't be the same, that I had crosses a line and opened a door that there were no closure. But I never thought I would fuck up my confidence so badly.

How was yall introduced to cocaine and what changed in your life ever since?