All day all I have seen on insta and fb is people sharing albums of photos of all the experiences they had, and I have maybe one or two events that required a photo. I’m actually gone from an everyday user from 2016 to using 3 times since July, but I now use speed instead due to cost and the need for only a line or two a night.

I went from being out with friends till 3/4am, then started going home early on nights out to sniff at home. Then I just stopped going out. And I haven’t lost that habit of just staying in, even though I’m only using speed once or twice a week.

Im worried that this feeling of just wanting to sit inside, telling friends I’m not feeling great, won’t go away. And that I won’t go back to having moments in life worth showing off, even though I wouldn’t be one for actually posting them.

Killing me to see these pics and it’s not jealousy it’s just sadness at how I ended up like this. Anyone else experienced this?