i’ve began blowing thru 8 balls like it’s nothing. i got myself into a good chunk of debt now. i keep paying for it on my credit card, which i haven’t been able to pay off for months. but if i don’t do blow, im miserable. i don’t get out of bed. i don’t wash my face. of course in a perfect world id like to stop, but right now i wanna focus on doing a lot less. i know rehab is the likely answer, but what can i do just short of rehab?

i think weed would help, thats what made me do less when i first started doing coke, but i stopped smoking weed months ago and dont care for it at all now, so if it really works maybe ill start again but god did i hate how slow it made me feel.