Okay so I used to be kinda hooked on cocaine for a few months in my senior and junior year of high school. My senior year I REALLY experienced the lows of addiction, constantly searching for a feeling that only gave me relief from my anxiety of needing to use. Eventually building up the strength to stop, at least slowly. After this, I realized how useless coke is and have been afraid to do it again.

Until today sum happened and I was emotionally upset and my brain kept putting cocaine as the answer! Even though I knew it wouldn’t help I just had this huge urge to get some.

It’s been several months since I last used, and this time I finally got it, my stomach was just bubbling of excitement from simply having it in my hands. It became physically difficult to restrain the happy noises I wanted to make 😭

Then, I took my first little bump and it was like KAPOW!!! This eye rolling euphoria, remembering and enjoying the smell being inhaled from my nose. I couldn’t stop smiling from fulfilling this craving I desired so much.

So have you ever had a smiling, eye rolling, uncontainable, silencing, sort of euphoria from using a drug you haven’t in a while? Or know how this chemical reaction occurs? Because I did not have this brain orgasmic feeling from using coke before 😂