So I'm currently in Chile visiting family and I found out my coke plug also sold "monitos" or cocaine base paste, the stuff thats left over from cocaine production, it is a lot like crack but imo more intense, it's also cheap as all fuck (1000clp $1.45cad)

either way i spent 20 bucks on it while at an aunts house, i thought it was just me and my aunt but then suddenly my mum comes our to the backyard and sees me with a foil pipe full of tobacco mixed with white powder and she freaks the fuck out and took my card (I'm a working adult) but I promised her it was a one time thing only, that i just wanted to test what my deadbeat dad loved so much and she bought it because I have never broken a promise to her. on that note I also want to experience the real base paste not out of a foil pipe but a normal one with ash.

so the question is, should I get another ticket and smoke it out of like my bong or homemade brass ceackpipe and break the promise I made to her?

I know she wouldn't find out but I would know and I don't know how I'd react to the guilt since I'm bipolar