hi, im 23F and i was wondering what people do when they’re doing coke. i exchanged on this before with people from this subreddit and they almost all get h0rny ; personally, i don’t ; mostly pick up my computer or my phone and move away from the party and start doing adult stuff : administrative tasks, replying to emails, organization and writing to do lists, university stuff, bank stuff, i even took out loans once lmao: my friends always tell me to shut my phone down and enjoy the conversations but i just like doing shit i procrastinate when i’m sober, it feels like it makes me finally functional (i’m going through a major depression and i can’t do anything because i don’t have the energy of it). i also like creating « year plans », for instance i’m an artist and i once wrote a whole management plan lmao detailing all my project from the artistic direction to the final budget, schedule my releases, coke gives me a strong leadership, in my personal projects, or studies, i feel like i’m capable on succeeding to anything and i feel super motivated since the insecurities blocking me down are gone. finally, when i’m with my best friend, the trip turns into a therapy ; we talk about traumas, insecurities about the future, etc, very deep and personal topics that are hard to face and confront when sober. i like giving advices, giving a new approach and a new point of view to her stories/mine, we talk about things differently and we feel more relieved and honestly coke has helped me so much to understand darkness i went through, i gained in maturity thanks to it anyways that was long but i was wondering if anyone does the same as me or if i’m the only cokehead struggling with adult life ;p btw i’m autistic !

TL;DR : what do people do when they’re on coke ? i don’t get horny, i do administrative tasks such as replying to my mails and uni and bank stuff, i organize my life goals and write year plans, therapy